I Thought For You

I thought I may blame myself forever,
for your self-righteous pride,
that I may cry forever,
tears you caused…justified.
I thought I may be wrong forever,
the pain you caused was right,
the sleeplessness in a darkened world,
was just me…giving in to the night.
I thought I may go on,
a complacent memory,
of what I wanted of you, of me,
the vision…an apparition,
the ghost of which would never again be.
I thought…for years I thought,
many years too long.
I thought that this was love,
though my heart… motionless… disembodied…
but love…love…I thought wrong.
I thought,
in quiet conviction,
of yesterday’s depiction,
of tomorrow,
in an unlikely view…from afar…of you,
and the lack of love you possess,
that you know longer own,
and I thought,
I thought for you,
that I only feel sorrow.

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